Knowing me, knowing you

Sometimes I get blinded by emotions that I feel and act like she's a close friend when in fact we're nothing more than mere acquaintances. I can already picture myself watching the upcoming movie Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe all alone. Perhaps if I make it clear to her that it doesn't have to be a date if she doesn't want to; that I just want some company to watch the movie with. Or maybe I should start taking my lunch in the mess hall and meet some new friends, friends that also like to watch movies, or perhaps love to sing karaoke. :-) I have lots of friends in our department, unfortunately most of us in the MIS department are males, none of the females are single, and none besides me love to watch movies in the theaters (most watch them at home, DVD).

It's hard to be an introvert and a movie-lover at the same time. I don't mind watching movie alone, actually, but it really isn't as enjoyable with company, especially comedies and romantic comedies. My transfer to the Technical Support division is helping me a bit because now I have to interact with lots of people at work, unlike before in Development where I mostly interact with my boss and my lean, mean, green-screen program editor (SEU). I'm not saying that all programmers are introvert, of course. But when you are a programmer and an introvert, like me, people around you can start disappearing and you wouldn't even notice it until your network connection is unplugged. Only then will you ask, "Where is everybody?" Sounds funny, but it's true. And when you're like that but still loves to go out and watch movies in theaters, well, let's just say that life becomes complicated. The mere process of asking someone to go with you becomes a daunting task. Add the fact that you are attracted to her and the task becomes almost impossible. But I still manage to gather enough strength and courage to ask...sometimes. And when she rejects the invitation, it hurts.

Okay enough with this mushy stuff. I don't want you throwing up all over my blog. Hehe... I'm not usually like this. And sorry about the overuse and confusing use of pronouns. I don't like to name names, yet. :-) See you around.