Hide and seek

Sometimes I amazed myself at what I get myself into. A tangled web of deception. A ruthless form of hide and seek. I feel like I've thrown myself into this game where I seem to be the only one who doesn't know the rules. Not knowing the rules wouldn't have matter that much if I end up being good at this game. But I'm not good at it. Never has, never will. I'm playing with veterans who know all the rules and knowledgeable of every trick. They've played this longer than I did. I should just accept that I'm not good at it and stop playing. I don't want to play anymore. What am I trying to prove anyway?

I say goodbye to this game. I say goodbye to this weird form of hide and seek.

Dear Lord, please give me the strength to get out of this game. Please guide me on how to do it. I really want out this time, O Lord. Please help me. Amen.

In other news...

I've watched the final two episodes of Goong (Palace/Princess Hours) last night. But I'm too tired to blog about it now. I will, soon, hopefully. I finished it just in time when my boss noticed that I no longer come in to work on time. I better be careful. I should exert extra effort to come to work on time. I'm not like this before. I used to come in early and leave late. Time to regain my old self. It'll be hard. It probably won't happen tomorrow. But I have to. Not because my boss wants me to, but because it's the right thing to do. It's the right thing to do just like to stop playing this hide and seek. It's the right thing to do.