Stargazing, hopes and dreams

When I was young the streets that run through our neighborhood is rough. Dusts everywhere. Stones everywhere. A neighbor used to have a broken pickup truck in front of their house. My childhood best friend and I would often lie on our backs on top of the truck, watch the stars and talk about our hopes and dreams. She'd talk mostly about dreams, and I about hopes.

We were probably ten. Because when you're nine you only have dreams. When you're ten, you have dreams, and you also have hopes. You hope to achieve your dreams. Then from eleven on, you actually work on achieving them. And then when you achieved them you realized what you achieved is so much different from what you hoped for when you were ten.

If I could do it again, find a broken pickup truck, lie on my back on top of that truck with my best friend, and watch the stars, I wonder what dreams she'd tell me and what hopes I'd confide to her. If I could do it again now as the year 2006 draws to a close, what would my hopes and dreams be for the new year and the years to come?

Let me search my feelings.

I hope to write more blog posts next year compared to 2006.

I dream of writing a novel someday. Right now, I don't see it happening anytime soon, but still there's that hope that one day I'll wake up with a brilliant story in mind, a story worth writing. I hope that by that time I will know enough nuts and bolts of writing novels to put that brilliant story idea to paper. This is my biggest dream right now. It's so far from becoming a reality, but I'm happy that there's no age limit to becoming a writer.

I hope for a reorganization of our department soon. Yeah, I know, why would I want that? Wouldn't the status quo be safer? Yes, indeed it would be safer, but somehow I feel that a reorganization of our department could be the push that I'm waiting for to go beyond mediocrity and search for more, search for a better job, search for a better life. The way I see it a reorganization is better than the status quo. Our department could be dissolved and then I'd be compelled to search for a job somewhere else. It's also possible for our department to be dissolved and then I could be re-hired by the outsourcing company that provides IT services for the new IT structure of the company. Whichever way, it could be a blessing in disguise waiting to happen.

I hope to reconnect with my childhood friend (and grade school classmate). The day before Christmas, I attended the christening of my godchild, the first child and son of my childhood best friend and neighbor. My childhood friend was one of the godmothers (the three of us were grade school classmates) and so we met at the reception. We had a pleasant conversation and got to catch up with each other a little bit. It's been a while since we last saw each other. She's as beautiful as ever and still got that smile that captured my heart way back when. Back then, I was fortunate to have also captured her heart. I know what you're thinking, but that's not it. I just want to be in communication with her again. To reconnect. Actually I'd like to reconnect with friends whom I haven't seen or heard from in a while.

I hope to cure my unhealthy tendency to dwell in the past. For the year 2007, may I find it easy to forgive and be easily forgiven. May I heal fast as well as a source for fast healing.

I hope for general happiness for me and my family, and also for my friends.

I hope for general happiness for you.

These are my hopes and my dreams for the year 2007 and the years to come. God bless us all in 2007. Happy new year!