2007 is here. Now what?

This seems to be my question at the start of every year. One week of holidays. And then it's over and a new year begins. Now what? I don't want to make any new year resolution, not because I'm confident that I won't achieve them, rather because I still can't think of any. I'd rather spread my resolutions throughout the year, every time I feel like resolving something.

What I'd like to do is the Consciousness Examen, explained by Fr. Jboy in his blog. I don't want to re-explain it here, but here in a nutshell are the steps in this examination:

1. prayer for enlightenment (prayer to see one's life as God sees it)
   
2. prayer of gratitude (thanksgiving for blessings received)
   
3. survey of actions (what areas in our life are deficient and need change)
   
4. sorrow and contrition (realization of our sinful tendencies and deficiencies)
   
5. hope for the future (see in the deepest part of your heart how you now face the future)
   

I'd be sure to write about the things that I come up with this exercise. It's meant to be done daily not just at the end or at the start of the year.

Letting go

For the better part of last December I have been trying to salvage a friendship that I now doubt really existed in the first place. It's very tiring. No true friendship can be this hard to save. It's time to let go. I believe I have done every humanly possible thing to try and save it. Again, I now doubt whether there was something to save in the first place. It's time to let go and move on. I'm taking positive steps to repair the wound inflicted on my soul. It's time to divert my efforts to true friends, those friends who wouldn't abandon me in a blink of an eye. Living in her fairytale for a few months had been wonderful, but every tale has to end. I have reached its end.

It's all in my hands

I worry too much. Sometimes too much that it rules my life. It's not good to dwell on one's worries. Sometimes it is easy to forget that it's all in God's hands. I'm not going to solve this problem soon. But I hope, from time to time, I'll be aware that I'm worrying too much so that I can tell myself, "Carl, stop worrying. Don't think of the problem. Think of the solution."